Stories Of My Life #005 - I am her and She is me

I am her and She is me

Day 1

How are you? You seem a little tired especially your eyes.

No, it's nothing. I'm okay. It must be coz I slept quite late last night. with a slightly tired voice

Oh okay. Tell me if anything is troubling you. Are you happy?

Oh yeah.. told you it's nothing



Day 2

I called somewhat absent mindedly 

So how are you? Settled or still worried about something?

No, I'm okay. It's all good.  



Day 3

You know I haven't slept quite well from last few days. Something is bothering me.

Oh really? Why, what's wrong?

I had a strange dream that we were both searching something desperately.. It seemed that we were trying quite hard and were exhausted. It was something of yours' that we were looking for but you weren't telling me what was going on and that was making it even harder to find whatever that was. But I was searching with you regardless. I'm not sure what to make out of this dream but are you in some sort of dilemma trying to come to a big decision or something?

!!!!

Yes

Yes I am 

I have been searching something - 

for quite some time now - something within myself - it is as if I'm peeling away each layer that wraps around me. Layers of fear, inhibition, false impressions, unwilling acceptance, layers of fake stories shouting that I'm happy when I'm not. 
As I peel each layer away - I'm bleeding and screaming in the agony of exposure. With each invasion I reach deeper and deeper within and I'm scared - to be unveiled - to be so close to the truth - to shed off the barriers that keep me from reality... but all this is too painful for me to share with anyone. 

But yet still, SHE knows. As always - she just knows. 

She is my Mother.

Tears rolling down as I clear my throat - mmm.. yeah... there is something actually that I've been thinking about

Key: Blue - Unsaid